In the capital of the province of Matanzas, Cuba, I had my first contacts with the yoga philosophy and practice over 25 years ago. My intensive search for freedom, typical of a healthy adolescence, drove me from one church to the next within a few years, I read from Nietsche and Spinosa to Aristotle and Kant to Thomas Mann and Hermann Hesse, from Freud and the Bible to Koran and Tantra, Theosophy and Yoga …
None of that gave me what I was looking for. Only the practice of Hatha Yoga with the members of the Cuban Theosophical Society managed to show me my body differently than just an instrument for pleasure. My journey inside began, my search outside became less and less important. But the discontent was still there, and it was getting stronger.
Until I got to know Jiddu Krishnamurti’s work. When I read his book «Temor, Placer y Dolor» my eyes grew bigger and bigger, yes they opened.
“The truth is a pathless land.», I read it in. «You have to climb the truth, it cannot be graded or organized for you.» No religion, no guru, no party, nobody can do the work for me. I have to be aware of my conditioning, I have to experience the way I work, I have to learn to let go.
My wall started to show and release, but at the same time another wall built inside me … I would only notice this decades later.
Thank God I met the Spanish priest Father Ramon Martin of the Order of the Carmelites around 1987, a whole chapter in my life. Meeting him is a living inspiration. His clear vision showed me an enlightened Jesus who also lived in freedom. Ramon’s message was the same as that of Gautama the Buddha, Jesus Christ and Jiddu Krishnamurti: there is no point in imitating. You have to be free for yourself in God, the Truth, the Silence or whatever you want to call what cannot be put into words.
With Ramon, I discovered the true yoga, which has nothing to do with compulsion, but is awake, effortless awareness, and not just during the working hours with the body (hatha yoga) but in everyday life (raja yoga). Around 40 people came to his Hatha Yoga class at the convent of the “Iglesia de los Carmelitas”, Calle Manzano in Matanzas; after a few months it was only 10 or 12, a close group that met regularly for 5 years and in which I was the youngest. When Ramon suddenly decided to go back to Spain to settle in a monastery, I had no feeling of abandonment. He had shown us the existence of the eternal source, I had drunk at the source myself, there was nothing more he could do for me. Our friendship is eternal because it is not dependent on anything.
Ramon is now the abbot in the Monastery of Desierto de Batuecas, where I visited him in 2005. A true hermit with the greatest responsibility for the world.
So I experienced hatha yoga, silence and peace as inseparable.
In the coming years everything inside and out would move and change radically. But the access to the source is there.
From 1991-96 I studied French and received my diploma as an interpreter, translator and teacher of French / Spanish from the University of Havana.
I came to Germany in 2001.
In 2003 I joined an initiative to found a free school in Germany that should work in the sense of freedom and related to Jiddu Krishnamurti’s teaching. This group broke up; some deep friendships developed.
With the intention of creating a space for myself where I could meditate at peace, after my first 10 days Vipassana retreat (in the tradition og S. N. Goenka; at present I have been at 10 of those retreats) I did the yoga teacher training in 2004 at Yoga Vidya in Bad Meinberg and the Ayurveda massage training in Westerwald, and became a self-employed yoga teacher and Ayurveda massage therapist in Leipzig
From 2007 to 2009 I lived and worked in the Ashram Yoga Vidya Bad Meinberg, where I gained lots of useful knowledge about Indian culture and completed further training in yoga and Ayurveda.
In 2009-10 I broke a few months in India. I traveled there for 3 weeks with Rajesh Dalal, a close friend of Jiddu Krishnamurti. I visited many Krishnamurti schools and centers and unsuccessfully looked for an ashram that was suitable for me.
My daughter was born in 2011. I became a yoga teacher and massage therapist in Leipzig again. That year I started studying Holokinetic Psychology (HP). Dr. Ruben Feldman Gonzalez, the founder of HP, worked for over 10 years with Jiddu Krishnamurti, David Bohm, Karl Pribram and other scientists in close cooperation to research the scientific foundations of «unitary perception». (see «Chronology of a discovery»)
After further searching and trying, in 2020 I discover Advaita Vedanta in the presence of my teacher Francis Lucille. Francis, a direct disciple of Jean Klein, summarizes the spiritual teaching of Yoga, Advaita Vedanta and Kashmir Shaivism, offering a friendly and loving guide on the Direct Path.
Yoga is no longer just «my thing»: it is a research, discovery, enjoyment together.
I am happy to meet people who want to live a life in freedom!